January 20, 2021: How Are You?

“Jesus wept” (John 11:35, NLT).

This verse is the shortest verse in the Bible, but it is packed with a powerful punch. It shows that feeling negative emotions is part of the human experience. To me, it signifies that it’s OK to not be OK.

We are accustomed to saying “I’m fine” whenever we are asked how we are doing, when, in reality, we could be feeling angry, sad, confused and helpless—the complete opposite of fine.

As I write, a pandemic is sweeping over the world. I know that I am not fine, even though I may say I am to those who ask. I may even say it with a smile. But deep down, I know the uncertainty of the future is anxiety-provoking. Not being able to control certain aspects of my life or even plan for the upcoming month makes me want to cry.

Am I feeling sad or angry? Or both? I’m not even sure I know. That is why this verse, how Jesus portrayed His humanity, great sadness and anger as a result of what sin had done to the world, really speaks to me during this time.

The story doesn’t end here though. A few verses later, Jesus says, “Didn’t I tell you that you would see God’s glory if you believe?” (John 11:40, NLT). Jesus is reminding us that He is still in control of the world, and, if we believe in Him, we will see His glory.

Dear God, may the madness that is happening all around us eventually end, and may we see Your mercy and love shine through the darkness and uncertainty. Amen.

Crystal Lubis is a member of the Capital Chinese church in Maryland.​